I'm such a survey whore, but don't want it to be public

Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?
Yes, and I will.

Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused?

Taken, confused, and perhaps the tiniest bit heartbroken.

What if I told you that you were pretty?
Grin, shy away, and maybe giggle a little.

Ever been told "it’s not you, it's me"?
Essentially, yes.

Are you interested in anyone right now?
Yes, at this very second!

What are you looking forward to in the next week?
AP Exams, Wildwood

Do you want to be single?
I think so.

Do you like to take walks?
Haha, indeedily do.

Did you go out or stay in last night?
I went out for most of the afternoon, but had to come home before 7.

How late did you stay up last night?
3 AM

Excited for anything?
Wildwood, prom, the end of AP Exams

Can you recall the last time you realized you liked someone a lot?
Yes. Jimmy was in Hawaii and called me and I realized.

Last three things you had to drink?
Milk, water, water

Have you pretended to like someone?
Hahaha, oh my sweet, sweet Wasiq.

Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it?
Yep, but I didn't initiate it, and not to a boy.

Where was your profile picture taken?
Longwood Gardens, bitches.

Is it hard for you to get over someone?
I didn't think that it would be, but I have discovered that it is.

Think back five months ago, were you single?
I had a hookup, but yes.

What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon?
Playing Ultimate and getting the sickest turf burns ever for the best dive in the history of dives to score.

Hold hands with anyone this week?
With my dear Jimmy.

Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?
No. I physically could, but I don't want to die without trying it once.

What would you name your future son?
John, Jack, or Wasiq Jr.

Do you miss anyone?
Abby, Dave, my mom, my uncles, Kristin, Katy, Laura

Have you kissed three or more people in one night?
No, but it's one of my things to do before I graduate college.

Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed?
Ew, yes. Blaaaaagh.

Do you sleep with the door open or closed?
Closed.

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
I probably could, but I've never had a reason to. If I feel something, I've told someone about it.

Have you ever cried from being so mad?
Haha, yeah, my brother can be quite the dick.

Who did you last see in person?
Mi hermano.

Are you listening to music right now?
Hahahaha. Yes, Kamelot, thanks to Wasiq.

What is something you currently want right now?
To find a tree to climb!

What is the last thing you said out loud?
"I never know where I'm going."

How is your heart lately?
Healthy, beating, blue/reddish, confused

Do you wear the hood on your hoodie?
Nope!

Did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl?
Not yet.

Are you wearing socks?
Super awesome pink and black stripey ones!

What do the majority of people in your life call you?
Chloe, awesome

What's on your mind right now?
WHAT THE HELL IS THAT OVER THE BARN THAT I NOTICED JUST THIS INSTANCE HOLY HELL I THINK IT'S A CRANE.

Are there any stressful situations in your life?
Well, I should be for AP Exams, but I don't get stressed out too much.

Who did you last share a bed with?
The last people I last shared a bed with was Jimmy, Schade, and Wizpig.

Did you do something bad today?
Mwahaha. Almost incited an anarchist riot in Career Development. Ms. Wessman laughed.

When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you?
Roughly 40 minutes ago.

Do you get stressed out easily?
Hahaha, I'm so chill.

How old is the oldest person on your top friends?
Top friends is a petty tool for fighting.

Will you sing today?
I did and will.

Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but couldn't?
Yeah, which is why I used to pride myself on my honesty because I never had this problem before.

Who do you go to when you need to talk to someone?
Jeff, Viv

Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance?
No, but I hope to eventually for nothing serious.

What are you listening to right now?
The Pendulous Fall from Ghost Opera by Kamelot

What is wrong with you right now?
I have skinned knees and a confusing situation, but other than that I'm gosh darned well.

What is on your wrists right now?
My drumline bracelet, a hair tie, and my prom invitation bracelet from Jimmy

Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you're wearing?
My mom got it for me down the boardwalk two years ago. It has Jimi Hendrix on it.

What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider?
Both are equally incredible.

Do you make wishes at 11:11?
No, I've wasted too much magic in wishing for the reasonable, so I decided that either something is impossible or I will make it happen.

Are you a good artist?
Yes.

Love really is a beautiful thing, huh?
Gorgeous. Wouldn't trade it for the world.

Do you miss the way things were 3 or 4 months ago?
Nope, things are soooo good for me now and my brother would've just gotten out of the hospital.

Ever been on a golf cart?
Ridin' dirty

Do you have trust issues?.
I don't trust very easily, but I got over it for the important stuff and it's not an "issue" that has affected me since.

Ever stayed up all night on the phone?
Yes. Also, does Skype count?

Do you own something from Hot Topic?
Socks, rainbow suspenders, buttons, thigh high stockings, a garter belt, and shirts.

Do you use chap stick?
Not frequently, but yes.

Have you ever slapped someone in the face?
Never with force enough to make it count, but very gentle taps, yes.

Do you sleep with the TV on?
Nope.

Do you have a little sister?
Nope.

Have you ever been to New York?
So much fun. My love of the Phantom in 7th. Throwing a pretzel at my brother and having him attacked by pigeons. The birthday party hogging the pirate ship freshman year. Bubba Gump Shrimp and Louis in sophomore. "Again."

Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
Absolutely.

What were you doing at midnight last night?
Learning to play Going to California on electric mandolin.

Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
Myself! :D

Were your last three kisses from the same person?
No. UGH! GROSS!

Have you kissed anyone in the last five days?
I'm workin' on it.

Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?
Alone. Bitches take up space and blankets and stink and I look terrible when I sleep. However, naps are exceptions.

"meglio esserci lasiati che non esserci mai incontrati"

Two good things happened today. But when I got home, nothing was changed.

There's a hipster website with quotes and pictures that I like, but there are a lot of pictures of hip guys smoking and skateboarding and wearing plaid and taking photographs. I'm scared I'll see Dave.

"If somebody yells out, 'Hey! Stop, drop, and roll!' Say, 'That might save my skin, but it won't save my soul.'"

I finally got to hear Tarkio, rather than read the Wikipedia article, and I like it as much as The Decemberists.

[Sister Nebraska][Weight of the World]

I used to pride myself on being honest and saying what I thought to the people it mattered to.

My guitar needs new strings.

Good Arms vs. Bad Arms is in my Top 50 Most Played as of late...

The only 2 songs that deserve to be in my Top 10 Played are Farmhouse and Going to California.

For the first time of the New Year, I accidentally made it to Wednesday without reading the Sunday Secrets. They made me sad.

I'm relying on the summer to do complete all of my resolutions. Except for one. I think I'm putting too much effort into one time rather than continually self improving.

If I talk behind someone's back, and they ask to know what I was saying, I will tell them (not who I was talking with). I wonder what is possible to be said about me behind my back.

Jimmy, talking behind people's backs: "Matt is AWESOME." "Trisha is awesome." "I did not ask to see that of Katie Fain."

On Morse Code's birthday I took a screen shot of the search bar on Google. I hope Dave thought of me too. I need to get over him.

I kinda want a motorcycle license. Also a gun license. Not to mention SCUBA, hot air balloon, pilot, HAM radio, and driver's.

I used to think that boys who broke up with girls for not putting out were cruel.

I know who I want to take me home.

Today, I sat down until the sun went down and the moon came out. I was wearing jeans and a t shirt and the warm wind is beckoning of summer. It's too soon. I don't want there to be another summer to replace my last one.

Today

I woke up at one or so and did odd jobs about the house, mostly jobs related to the internet. Jimmy was hanging out with Josh and my dad was doing more productive odd jobs about the house, so I assumed I was out of a ride wherever I felt like going. However, it was positively the most beautiful day of the year so far, and a walk would be absolutely gorgeous. My original intent was to bring my sketch pad and a Sharpie, but I settled on a camera, a Sharpie, and a goal to take pictures of memories, minus the people. I went up Kirk, got pictures of BYC and the specific picnic table. A right on Smithbridge to Build a Dream where I got the other picnic table as well as the quotes Molly, Stasi, and I left there. I wanted to get a picture of Dave's driveway, which was where we had our first kiss where something felt really different. My mom interrupted it, of course, but it was still really nice. I decided that it was about dinner time, and if his family was eating there, it would be beyond creepy to see me taking pictures of their house. Jeff's lawn has plenty of memories though, which is where I was headed when I ran into Dan walking Diesel. We chatted it up in the road, his parents were at Pitt, and we decided to hang out for a little while. The conversation was great and Mr. Graney sounds like a really awesome person. He offered me Kool-Aid, an apple, and some other stuff, and eventually we walked to Wawa, talking. I didn't get a picture of Jeff's lawn. At Wawa, we saw Regis where Dan got a lead on a potential job opening. Dan got green tea and M&Ms (for me) with the money his parents left him, and we walked back to his house. I learned a short cut through Sweet Hollow because my dad called, as it was nearing sunset. We hugged our goodbyes and I jog/walked to Garnet Mine where my dad picked me up. He was a little mad, but I wasn't drunk, high, or fucked, so I assume everything's fine.

TIA Chapter 3 Championships

"Chloe, the alarm is late."
Shower
Dress
Text Meg that I'll be late
Drive
Tell my mom I don't want to walk with her because I don't like walking with her
Ride in silence
Get into the other car
Get lost
Laugh
Listen to music
Dance like a scene kid
Laugh
Spot Tom Jones
Arrive
Get out
Say, "Thank you, sir."
Sit down
Get water
Order the blue ribbon special
Sit
Have Molly make fun of me
Put my hand in her face
Have her swat away my hand
Hold her hand
Talk
Eat
Eat other people's food
Bathroom
Return
Picture
Pay bill
"GV does not dine and dash."
Leave
Ride
Arrive
Stand
Explain why I'm wearing high heels
"I don't actually live at my mom's."
Practice
Being mean to Molly
Being forgiven
Apologizing
Practicing
Group talk
Saying there are, in fact, M&Ms
Moving
Being very warm
Watching boys play hackysack
Loading
Sitting
Eating
Talking
Eating
Talking
Moving
Riding
Talking
Listening
Changing
Unloading
Laughing
Moving
Practicing
Being ungodly warm
Sitting and drinking water in the shade
Practicing
Looking for a 4 Leaf Clover
Practicing
Looking for a 4 Leaf Clover
Practicing
Looking for a 4 Leaf Clover and drinking
Moving
Waiting
Talking to Kacey
Talking to Tom
Talking to Barathi
Talking
Changing
Moving
Fixing the resonators
Whispering
Moving
Performing
[Acting, Playing]
Moving off
Standing around
Crying a little
Moving
Loading
Laughing
Sitting with Rose
Talking
Having fun with Joey and Barathi and Rose
Sitting
Bodies on the Floor
Loading
Changing
Laughing
Group talk
Laughing
Finding the courtyard with Rose
Sitting
Talking
Boomerang and Frisbee in the courtyard
Great fun
Diving for the frisbee
Finding a three clover made of confetti
Laughing
Frisbee
Trying to climb the tree
Molesty hands
Trying to make the frisbee go through the boomerang
Double high-fiving Alex
Rejoicing on the hill
Finding a 4 Leaf Clover
Cursing incredibly loud
Being terribly embarrassed because of the toddler in the courtyard
Trying to get a band-aid for Barathi
Breaking into the bus
Getting band-aid
Coming back
She already had a band-aid
Frisbee
Boomerang
Tom trying to make the boomerang come back around
Going inside to watch Chichester's guard
Watching GV's guard
Wishing I could dance
Talking to Christian, Joey, Rose, and Barathi in the cafeteria
Being crude
Getting stared at
Talking to Christian, Joey, and Rose in the cafeteria
Talking to Christian, Joey, Rose, and Alex in the cafeteria
Talking to Christian, Joey, Rose, Alex, and Stasi in the cafeteria
Talking to Christian, Joey, Rose, Alex, Stasi, and Hetty in the cafeteria
Laughing the whole time
Going back to the bus
Changing
Standing outside the bus
Making salacious talk with Stasi
Going inside
Watching the good guard
Making hilarious faces (according to Ms. Turso)
Screaming for the boy with the dolphin tattoo over his bellybutton
Laughing and being scared with Rose, Joey, and Christian
Leaving for the A Gym
Standing outside
Rejoining the group
Standing outside
Getting in line
Clapping and stomping to "We Will Rock You"
Talking to Stasi
Counting off for the boys doing pull ups
Leaving the room
Head bobbing
Dancing a little
Standing
Being disappointed
Standing
Cheering
Leaving
Bathroom
Leaving
Bus
Changing
Being disappointed
Phone call
Sharing our favorite memories
Making new ones
Losing pididdle
Having crazy awesome fun
Changing
Getting off the bus
Unloading
Leaving

I keep looking at a prom dress I can't have.
:P

50 Lil' Secrets I Stole from Facebook

50 Little Secrets

Who was your last text from?
James Matthew Avestruz

Where was your default picture taken?
Perhaps the most epic picture in the noble union of land pirates and cameras, my default picture was taken by my BFF, Matt, at Longwood Gardens.

Your relationship status?
I am the girlfriend of my boyfriend, James Matthew Avestruz. However, when listening to "Put a Ring On It," I put "mah hands up." On May 3rd, I will celebrating my 1 Year Anniversary with my beloved secret lover, Gina. Also, I may or may not be the mistress of Molly Diggory.

Where did you meet your boyfriend?
The band room? Dear goodness. That's foul.

Have you ever lost a close friend?
Ah, many times, but my life is blessed with beautiful, transient people who make their time with me a gorgeous adventure.

What is your current mood?
Light and giddy!

What's your brother's name(s)?
John Joesph Hendriekez Glynn

Sister's name(s)?
Miss Carriage

Where do you wish you were right now?
I wish, that right now, I was stargazing in Death Valley, California.

Have a crazy side?
No, I'm fairly one sided crazy.

Ever had a near death experience?
Not very close, though I've been scared.

Something you do a lot?
Say "quite" or "rather." Move around unnecessarily. Talk. Sing. Blink. Smile. Laugh.

Angry at anyone?
It's a strange sort of angry where there was no quantifiable wrong done against me, and therefore nothing to forgive or apologize for, but I'm still angry.

What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
Because I already went for them and they liked me back, so now I have them!

When was the last time you cried and why?
Last Saturday, I was absolutely wrecked with exhaustion, drumline had just taken first place. I realized that the organization holds no personal satisfaction and I won't care incredibly about the people in it next year. It was hard to feel close to Jimmy and it became so obvious that I'd temporarily lost my best friends and everyone I'd connected with and those I hadn't were going to leave and I wanted to get out of here so badly.

Is there anyone you would do anything for?
There are people I would commit murder for, there are definitely more people I would go to jail for. There are people who I would do anything within reason for. There are people who I would do anything they could possibly request of me for. There is no one I would do anything for, simply because I am unable to.

What do you think about when you are falling asleep?
Jimmy, friends, my mom, contentment, restlessness, getting out of here, word play, the posters over my bed, what I can physically feel at that instant, stuff I have to do, obligations, the past, beautiful, beautiful memories of last summer

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Jimmy, though my dad was the last person to call me... oops.

What is your favorite song?
All time favorite song: Wish You Were Here by Pink Floyd for 3 reasons
Next Top 2: You Can't Always Get What You Want by the Rolling Stones for 3 reasons
Going to California by Led Zeppelin for 2 reasons

What are you doing right now?
Fillin' out this, thinkin' 'bout what to draw, listen' to Australia.

Do you trust anyone right now?
I trust almost everyone, but for some it's that I have trust in their consistency not necessarily their loyalty to me.

Where did you get the shirt your wearing?
Viv gave it to me! :D

Have you hugged someone in the past week?
DUH!

Describe your life in two words?
Restless/Content

Who are you thinking about at the moment?
Jimmy!

What should you be doing right now?
Talking to Jimmy, but his wireless died. I should actually be looking for a coffin for it.

What are you listening to right now?
Loose Lips by Kimya Dawson from the JUNO Soundtrack (it changed since the other question about this)

Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
Jimmy! :D

Who was the last person who yelled at you?
Mr. Longo (?)

What is your natural hair color?
Blonde with highlights, the shade depends on the season

Who was the last person to make you laugh?
Jimmy :]

Who was the last person to make you mad?
Myself, for not saying the "the" in pantheism. It was terrible, but I was worked up. :P

What animals do you have?
A doggy, a kitty, and a barn cat

Is your hair curly or straight?
Straight like an arrow that's been molded over someone's curvy head.

Hugged the opposite sex in the past 3 days?
Every day at least twice a day!

Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
Yes, but they do not quite convey the emotion of real faces.

Plans for the week?
Tomorrow: HiQ banquet
Friday: Pennsylvania State Academic Bowl
Saturday: TIA Chapter 3 Championship Competition
Sunday: Hangin' out with Jimmy

Are you happy with life right now?
Happy is not quite strong enough a word for it.

Are you currently jealous?
Of course, but it's nothing that bothers me as my life is SO FREAKING AWESOME.

What were you doing Friday night?
Sleeping and talking to Jimmy!

Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes. "Broken hearts hurt, but they make you strong."

Have you ever broken someone's heart?
Nope.

Is there anybody you're really disappointed with?
Not really disappointed with, but there are some things I should address.

Last person you saw?
My papa.

How late did you stay up last night and why?
I fell asleep at 8:30ish because Jimmy was video editing and I had nothing better to do, then I woke up around 11:30 and we talked until 12:30ish.

Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
No, thank goodness!

I wish I was leaving with Stasi, or instead of her.

miniTHON

Dance. Dance.

First we "learned" the miniTHON line dance. Unfortunately, there weren't enough repetitions for us to really get a handle. The first time they organized it without Morgan leading the demonstration we could barely get past the first steps. The dancing was free form from then on, with the best songs being played while the playlist was fresh and the public was there. The Battle of the Beanfield, my group, (named hastily when it was on the list of "awesome things from Wikipedia" I was carrying around with me) danced quite enthusiastically, receiving recognition from teachers in the form of "tickets." These tickets, along with donations from the public or group members, decided who would "win" at the end of the night. Some serious air guitaring on my part led to a small shout out from Nick L. and another point for us. The first activity required all of the dancers to line up by birthday to divide them into random groups. My randomly chosen team took third in the first round of relays, moving on to the finals, and first overall. At some point we got back to our original members, and they forced us to "caterpillar." This requires the first person in line to put their ankles on the second's shoulders while kneeling and so on and so forth down the line. It was a terrible set up that had no research put into it as no group could finish. Back to dancing! Pizza at eleven was good. Jimmy and Josh realized that my group member, Margo, didn't know when they were joking. Margo and I played ping pong. Our ball went behind the bleachers. I found a cockroach. Rachel and I played badminton. We kicked butt and got tickets for enthusiasm. I got destroyed by Molly Cannon in ice cream tasting. Automm and I couldn't hear the music in DDR, so we both failed. However, we both rocked through the fire and flames on Guitar Hero. I sang Float On with Steve and ...someone else? We were the only group who very enthusiastically danced for the live band, Leaving Cash. They also gave us a bit of a shout out. TECHNOMANIA!! (didn't go so well because the techno sucked...) Right after a straight half hour of bouncing to computer generated beats, we began our "aerobic activity." A woman came up on stage to instruct us on "zoomba." Zoomba is a type of dance fitness with very sexy hip moving that has more the atmosphere of a party than instructional activity. It's following the instructor to the beat of the Latin hip hop while trying not to collapse. That went on for 45 minutes to my surprise. I was exhausted for the lack of break after techno. However, if it didn't cost money, that would be a great work out. One of the goals of the evening was to not sit down. Jimmy and I held hands when I gave in. Absence is the only way to appreciate something and I certainly take sitting for granted. Our team won the scavenger hunt, but everyone was disqualified for reasons we couldn't quite figure out. They still gave us tickets. Kerri was very badass with her sunglasses. Indoors. At night. Josh borrowed them pretending to be someone else in a quest for a second serving of ice cream. After the poorly organized dodgeball tournament around 3 or 4, it deteriorated into a loosely unenthusiastic milling about of people. Jimmy and Josh flashed the bat-signal in people's eyes. 5-6AM was fairly miserable. We were all sleepy, sore, and irritable. I danced from 6-6:30, the last of the night. Celebrating the end was magical. We sat as a group, listening to Nick say his whatevers. We raised $17,600 or so. Because we got out so early I got a ride home from Josh, who was also delivering Jimmy to his place of residence. The final word of the evening, Josh said, "and tomorrow we will all wake up and the world will still be the same."

Unrelated: I really like this music video.

Boscov's Deluxe Assorted Chocolates by Asher's

At every holiday that requires a gathering of family, my grandmom gets 2 lbs. of assorted chocolates from Boscov's. I doubt that she actually goes out for the purchase, but it is at her tribute. When I was little, only my pop-pop seemed to eat them as I would never risk the disaster of coconut and they're not very high quality chocolates. Now I have it down to a fine science, picking out the chocolates I want. My brother only has it narrowed down to two on figuring out which one is caramel. But Uncle Mike has it perfect, and often beats him to it.

Why is my brother so fucking awesome?! There's so much water around my room...

A Softer World

Abby: this is almost the last meaningful thing I said to you
Barathi: or convert it to Barathi(s), but there's only one
Chloe: if only I escape
Dad: Why do I feel like he's trapped?
Dave: I don't think it's true, but still reminds me of him
Emily: this or this
Erik: why do I feel like you've said this before?
Gina: you are my far off star
Hetty: I don't know what "preternaturally" means, but assume it's good
Jeff: nerds and cats
Jeremy: haha, dick
Jimmy: I've ruined your philosophy
Joe: you were always kinda average
Joey: you always play to win
Kacey: she's not really that diabolical
Katie: this because of this
Lexie: because she's really okay
Matt: BFFs!
Meg: and Joe are super cute
Molly: singing and planning
Mom: *sigh*
Nicki: I like you better without a boyfriend :(
Rose: because you're so badass
Sarah: Do angels have princesses?
Stasi: change
Steve G.: I <3 Government
Tom: I can't imagine him making sandwiches though
Trisha: you are exciting and independent
Viv: this and that
Wasiq: if only

Others:
noun
pronoun
verb
adverb
adjective
conjunction
interjection
preposition
letters
word
sentences
paragraphs
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I think I'm going to run away in the summer. No where far I guess, maybe just to the shore. I don't know if I'll be able to drive by then. Is it ironic if I get a job so I can save up to leave?

Discovery

I like this website a lot

It is 1:14 on Sunday, April 5th, and I have to be Yossarian again.

Awesome Wikipedia Articles

Godwin's Law
Appeal to ridicule
Glittering Generality

walls, roof, stuff, me = my room

I can't imagine having any other room other than my own. I see myself going to college, living in a dorm, moving out, having a real house and life, etc... but I imagine that this room with always be here for me, when it won't.

...yeah... so in two more weeks I'll be done with this giving up meat for Lent thing, but that means I've gotten through a good twenty six days or so. However, going vegetarian changes the way you feel, and, well, smell (the strongest trigger of memory)...