Feeling Things

Jimmy and I had a "fight" this morning from around midnight to 3AM. I was very sad, then grumpy and angry and resentful. I rode his bus in the morning and I'm mostly better now, but I can still feel the effects of the fight in our texts. He's sad I won't fall in love with him. It all makes me sad. I am cold and sleepy and I dislike my mom's "new house." It's one room we actually have things of our own in. I'm usually outside, but it's raining.

P90X with Wasiq in Strength and Conditioning is awesome. There were 8 kids doing the work out today in gym. My abs hurt so much and I'm totally jacked for a girl (but I knew that).

I completely and totally apologize to Abby for not being a friend the last few months. I missed her.

Matt and I are going to see UP tomorrow. I missed him too, but differently.

Other things make me very sad recently. I used to not be so emotional. I miss that.

[edit: I got my ear pierced yesterday and I texted Dave two days ago and I asked him to hang out with me one time over the summer and he said, "well of course I can't just say no..." and I felt much better because I do want his friendship back, but this was mostly an exercise in getting closure. That's what I wanted to dare myself to do. I wasn't as scared about getting him to sign my yearbook because of it.]