Saturday, July 10, 2010

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§ 3124.1 Sexual assault

A person commits a felony of the second degree when that person engages in sexual intercourse with a complainant without the complainant's consent.

Friday, July 9, 2010

Indescribable Feeling (But I'll Give It a Shot)

First off, I have been in the most fantastic mood since Sunday. My dad and I spent the afternoon together, then ate dinner outside after the first successful test run of the grill. It really felt like summer, despite the fact it was already the 4th of July. Uncle Mike had us over for Sun Valley's fireworks as per usual. Since then, I've been so stupendously warm feeling. Every single day this week has had some wonderful, fantastic adventure with great people that I'm grateful to know. Monday saw the Brandywine followed by Lauren's pool party and ended with a sweet front porch evening. Tuesday I hung out with Joel and saw Jeff's hockey game, that night was so happy it lingered into Wednesday, which is when I finally had Juliana over for our sleepover. Thursday had me a little worried, because I was going with Meg and Stasi to Automm's. I'm not terrified of social situations, I get nervous about talking to people sometimes. Automm had two of her friends over, which got me a little stuck at first, but I told myself to get through it. One of my biggest fears is that I will have many acquaintances and no friends at college. I didn't want to be scared though. The person that I want to be is bubbly and outgoing and easy to engage in conversation, but that's not going to happen unless I practice. I thought about the magnetic personalities in my life, and what they would do in this situation. It wasn't a long thought, but I vowed to be fearless and funny and friendly. It worked! I told stories and evoked laughter and felt comfortable to be myself, even around strangers. The entire ride home, even stuck in an extra forty minutes of traffic, I felt so enveloped by joy. I often take my current friends for granted, but that time allowed me to be stunned by the people I'm surrounded with. I finally felt like I can be the person I hope to be. At home, wrapped up in bed, I couldn't stop smiling.

Monday, July 5, 2010

Vae Victo

I'm either an ass or making assumptions.

I only know the date when I have to write it down in my journal. My hope is that in writing sparse details of daily activities, my memory will always be able to fill in the rest. I'm forgetting things that happened in summers past, unless I can remember the date.

June 30th, July 3rd, 4th, and 5th, July 11th, July 19-20th, the 25th, August 5th, August 9th, September 7th, September 22nd, November 21st-22nd.

June 27th. July 10th. August 13th. August 15th (?). August 22nd.

I can recall hours from these dates, full of details and emotions and little stupid things. This is the first year I hold any significance to winter dates, but I'm scared this summer is so brilliant it will be without distinct highlights.

Envy and greed are the motivating forces of ambition - and without ambition, very little of any importance would be accomplished.
-
The Satanic Bible
Woo, apathy!

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Links & Connections

Currently open tabs (besides this blog):

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Russian_jokes#University_students
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Non-24-hour_sleep-wake_syndrome
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Best,_worst_and_average_case
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Non-photorealistic_rendering
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rococo
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Category:French_loanwords
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Trimix_%28breathing_gas%29
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Truth_and_Reconciliation_Commission_%28South_Africa%29
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Terminal_burrowing
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Truth_table
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Propositional_calculus
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Truth_value
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/A_priori_and_a_posteriori_%28philosophy%29
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Degrees_of_truth
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/False_dilemma
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Multi-valued_logic
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Slingshot_argument

http://www.pdceng.com/portfolio/battery_energy_storage_system.pdf

I don't know how this happen sometimes; it just does. SO MUCH INFORMATION.

Ugly

"If there ever was a moment to be labeled poetic, this was it"

I enjoyed my company this week.
Party. Joel. Stasi. Party. Party. Jeff. Gary.

"she was everything; and we were endless"


Today prompted the beginnings of a new journal, as my last one was entirely filled. Every day since May 6th (with the exception of the family reunion) has been documented.

"I'm trapped between the foreground and the background as the only guy she ever knew who could make her tingle"

I can't wait for college to say 'no' for me. Augh.

"That sunset has put an end to more beautiful days than you care to count"

I remember everything. Every slight and cruelty and sweet moment no one else will ever remember. I hate it.

"It's taking something ugly, and painful, and heartbreaking beyond comprehension"

Most days, I'd peg myself at a 5.5-6 Throw on some eye make up and a bikini, I like to think that I could push an 8.

"and showing you just how fucking beautiful life can be."

When I feel like emotional shit, I want to go running. It's too bad that only happens at night.