I like to think that I am aware of the transient nature of life, more so than most people. I have had days so beautiful, filled with activity and extreme emotion. There's that hypothetical, "If you had 5 minutes to live, who would you call and what would you say? Why haven't you said it yet?" Other than not being able to express who amazing my parents are, I feel like I've said everything. Maybe some people need it to be emphasized and clarified, but I try to live without secrets or hiding how I feel about people.

Closing Lines

"I don't want to loose you."
The spelling stung, but he was dumb and now I am loosened and it is wonderful.

"I still really care about you. We can talk about this whenever you need."
And now I am forgotten, my tongue tied.

"Do you want to try for something real, maybe later?"
No.

"I don't want to lose our friendship. ...take as much time as you need, and respond."
We never had a friendship.

The saddest thing in the whole world is knowing that despite all of the love still there, that this will be our last hug and feeling it end, very slowly, from a tight embrace, to merely standing there, holding hands.

Today

Today was awesome and the result of unfortunateness.
Jimmy hung out with Gabby all of yesterday, which was cool because I had to finish Molly's graduation gift. I asked him if he was free today, and he said, "No, I'm hanging out with Gabby again because she's leaving for Italy soon." Understandable, she leaves on the 13th, except that he's probably not going to want me back and I'll be leaving his life forever soon. Sorta in an effort to be mean, and sorta just because it's super fun to hang out with him, I txt'd Dan G. and asked what he was up to. We decided to hang out and frolic. The frolicking didn't happen, but we did bike around until eventually settling in to talk beneath a shady tree in Rob H. and Gab D.'s neighborhood. We talked about all sorts of interesting philosophical things, with promises to lend each other books and articles. Then we headed back to his house to meet up with Brandon, where they subsequently jammed. I was very excited to sit in on the jamming. Then we put french fries in the microwave, had "brownie bread," and Kool-Aid fruit punch. We decided to light sparklers on fire and have a water balloon fight, and I was conveniently wearing a bikini in case I decided to stop by Gina's. We had 17 water balloons and missed with probably 13 of them. Then we played "Civil Rights March" because Dan's hose looks like a fire hose from the south. It was fun and incredibly racist, but fun. We considered reenacting other tragedies, like the Hindenburg, but didn't. My pants were wet, and I am very proud to say that the only skinny jeans I have ever worn were Dan's. I just don't think they look very good on girls. Then we finally ate the french fries, tried to find people to come over, then sat in his front yard until Natalee and Kierstin showed up, followed by Taylor and Gabby. Dan, Brandon, and Gabby went inside at one point, leaving Taylor and I alone as Natalee and Kierstin left, and so we played volleyball, soccer, and catch with a basketball. It was a good time.

Thunderstorms
Waking up to a text message
Merry Dandelion Hunt
Making wishes on blue M&Ms
Having lots of green M&Ms
Disney movies
Vinyl Records
Doodling
Hipster fairytale alternative love stories like JUNO or Away We Go
How awesome art erasers feel
The way certain boys smell
Walking
Biking
The way trees look when they are full of sunlight
Shade in the summer
Hammocks
Lemonade
Stargazing
Finding shapes in the clouds
Sparrows
Playing guitar
Singing
Singing with friends
Making gifts for people
Writing letters
Making witty phrases or images
Reading
Climbing trees
Wearing pirate hats and [seasonally] scarves
Seeing people you've missed
Swimming
Wearing sexy clothes
Feeling sexy
Chuck Taylors
Oscillating fans in the summer
Sewing
Feeling productive
Writing love poetry
Making up songs
Free style rapping
Havin' money
Being proud of something
Acoustic guitar
Capo
Buttons
Fuzzy blankets
Painting
Stringed instruments
Sunglasses
My fancy camera
AWESOME music
Miniature things
Bandannas
Idealism
Holding hands
Tiki Torches
Live music
Feeling healthy
Fruit
Bread
Mac n' Cheese
Wind Chimes
Sitting down after standing up for a long time
Bein' a hipster
Learning
Reading Wikipedia
Reading poetry
Remembering
Trying to play harmonica
Talking to neighbors
Sunsets
Sunrises
Being awake before the birds
High heels [sometimes]
Callouses on my fingers
Vibraphones
Certain marimbas
Jack Kerouac
Music boxes
Cootie catchers
Long bus rides
Long car rides with friends
Blonde hair
Having fingers
Being able to breathe
Leaves in autumn
Old pictures
Sweaters
The perfect hoodie
Throw-back candy
90s Pop
Hot chocolate
Smores
Bonfires
Apple Cider
Milk and Cookies
PB&J
Fireworks
Lightning Bugs
Poetry & Literary tattoos
Kurt Vonnegut
PJs
Adventures
Christmas lights
Pictures of friends
Pictures from elementary and middle school
Bright colors
Beautiful prose
the word 'Incendiary'
Web comics
Science
The perfect resonating chord
Understanding a math or science concept for the first time
Having people worth biking to
The Beat Generation
Allen Ginsberg
Incense
There's oodles and oodles and oodles more I can't even begin to say or express or think of, but I have to go bike to a friend's house and frolic in the woods and maybe go to Wawa.
Wawa
Frolic'ing