Sunday, February 12, 2012

Things on my Body

a shirt
dead skin cells
dead backteria
small cuts
eyebrow mites

age is no crime

but the shame
of a deliberately

among so many


always believe that God is with you
and fear nothing

it was best like this

She' Mad but She' Magic

Saturday, January 28, 2012

Singing, Reading, Eating

I've been singing a lot. I might possibly like my voice now, but it's very timid in public.

My reading material of late have been Walden and Cunt, both manifestos in sorts, but urging individual expression. This is difficult for me. I don't know what I love. I know who I love, and the intangible things I love about them, but very few verbs. Reading. Sketching. Walking in new places. Swimming? Singing? Cooking? Considering this, I walked to the more distant, local grocery store. (As opposed to the big, fancy, overpriced store for college students.) There, I bought ~14lbs. of fruits and vegetables, four pounds of pasta, crackers for Bubba, and a gallon of milk. A $30 investment and a realization- conclusion #1, I want to eat a variety of fresh, healthy foods. If I continue to buy $30 of food a week, my expenses will be roughly $400 over the semester, considering supplements from home. The cheapest Temple meal plan, 5 meals a week, is $700. Good move, me.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Emptying Text Drafts

I never knew what happened on the boys side of sex ed talk, Large scale water colors, can't remember my last conversation with a black person, Learn how to French braid, Synchronized skateboarding, Making unrequited love, Have a liquor cabinet, Mathematician drinking games, You have to do something long term with your hair, The medium of a phone call is so much more urgent, Make real frosting, Immersion perfectionist, Potluck tomorrow, What's Gab's schedule, The shapes plants grow, Books on gardening, Get trees, Tea time with Penrose officials, Gardening club as horticultural society, Gardening newspaper, Soil samples, Hang out with Christine, Becoming an adult: alcohol independence, financial independence, social independence, Study so you know how to talk to professors, When were closets brought to the American frontier? Imagine a friendly neighborhood until people start walking through it like they have money and you're gonna be nothing, Legitimate whore make up, Do you still encounter people who think of you as an uncle Tom?

Concentrated Indian population in Philly, Urban Land Project, Make Naan, Tent cathedral, augmented reality, Video of a clock, Electronic Rube Goldberg machine, Optical illusions that are actually moving, Pumpkin capitol of the world, Gutters that play with rain [like fridge magnets], Cinemagraphic porn, Stained glass as frame to the outdoor rather than gate, Your loading screen is your desktop, How many people are kissing no asses above them, Comic Belief, Positively defined legal system, do sirenians have vestigial hair structures? If you're gonna buy a stolen bike, might as well steal yourself the one you want, Old Chris Rock Political special, Food used to take work and effort to prepare and eat, that's why you shared it with the family- to share the burden of cooking, Pun rock, The phrase "takes no prisoners" isn't really intimidating, that could be the motto of just about everyone, Dopapod, To ship something used to be very literal, Broadcast two visual frequencies overlapping, Rodeph Shalom,

stories from New Years of every year, finish Wuzaland, This ache I feel is crying protest from abandoned nerve endings, Can an invasive species be endangered? Flock of bees pulling your bike, Do birds nests create unique bacterial colonies? Ignorinse, How does the brake connecting cable work on a bike? Hydroponic plan, Too good to be truism, Public transportation to Bloomsburgh, Mondragon [Wiki article], School for experimental living, Ratio of stubby squirrel, yeast is the least expensive animal, I'd like to take a poll of things that are on the ground, Johnny Weed Seed, Neurons that fire together wire together, Transparent stickers like stained glass, Angles you've never seen other people from, Fish with balls, Thrustration, The Church of Oprah, he turned water into Franzia, Drinking faster gets you smashter, Lock self in room- practice beat boxing, Psychadelicate, Paranoid pear, Federalist papers, We'll be yodel revival, Are cowboys grown ups, Homemade public mosaic, Fireflies in winter, by what order do leaves change color on a tree?

Praxiology, Watch Roots, Are hard crunchies most efficient for cats, Free energy, Wearehunted, NDAA, St. George, Seed emporium, Chinese markets, Scientology school, What French is Gaga saying in Bad Romance? Why is there no E in the grading system, TCG bamboo, Libervox, Chap hop, Kill Bill, 24Bslash6, Noma bar, What exactly is army camouflage supposed to camouflage with? Pita recipe, I got hose on my dick like a Hookah, Hookah goose, the point of hip-hop is to become the man, "Party bard," aluminum foil origami, Time traveling to meet yourself from the future, but from the perspective of the old guys, People who travel by helicopter, November 3rd at 7

Work camp, Why are dreams so easily lost? Philly Home Show, Lay practicing celibacy, Consequential ethics, Chernobyl mushrooms, What year did I learn the most words? BitCoins, Summer URP list, Liberty dollar, Practice ridiculous thinking, Eudaimonia, The Art of Rhyme, West Virginia party thing artists playing in Philly, Teaching English in Japan, Really busy scene in reflection, How do ivy plants work? Buses smell like the subway- same cleaner? I assume that everyone can see and hear equally well, Tolerance result of literal lung clogging, Schuman 8, We need more stories of the honest politician, Whatever happened to neighbors? Imagine a room entirely filled with perfectly brushed human hair, The words in the story couldn't be twisted around to tell you what they meant (which was how to tell you) so they went into a song and were twisted to work, but the song, by being able to twist it, is therefore not true, because it "wouldn't" twist around at which point it did, loop it, Art students generation to generation, Culturally black jazz

Planned glass breaking, Randy Whorewal, Crayon shaping, Temple blood donation, Instead of turning up volume, turning up hearing,, Pearodactyl, Gun drawn on me, two ladies one bathroom, Going into priesthood to flirt, The bureaucratized campaign staff, When have I ever lain naked in the grass? Art colleges with a campus? Strangers are very ordinary looking, Ancestral wild, Where is the Bell Tower's music control? College of Visual Studies, Escher Quilt, The Cave as finding a place of vision finding in multiple cultures, Best Buy gift card for speakers, Temple Station mural, We think of things as Wholly Spatially Separate, Little jelly jars, "Fooo some e-a-son," Humans are aware of and observing the system, Wheezing train in the train, Raindrops are objects not a condition, Sharing afternoon drinks, Going to California is so magical with the right guy, cars subverting On the Road public transportation vs. car as American romance, Olympic ring handcuffs, you have done an evil thing,

Fig Chinese Chesnut, Home made hot coco-mac and cheese, Girl Talk, Biggie, Butterfly collecting, Ring necked pheasant-Northern flicker print, Toothed wings, Butterfly weed, Pennsylvanian mango, Tiny dragon rats, Giant Vulture, How were steinpustr [stegosaurus] spikes connected? Bonds? Stamp making rubber, Canvas online, Sonia Sanchez, Rumi,, Marion Cooke, tromb, EL&IC, Find Temple laser cutter, Koons, Dinosaur turtle necks, Mittany Lion, Conch Republic, How does instant oatmeal work? Personalized knitting machine, Tobacco comparison effect, Emily Dickinson, Make own deodorant, Climbing club, Make a kite, Church music in Philly, Refine and print TCG posters, Thumb-stained glass-R2D2 mail box, Draw a music video, Tech Center big printer online, Nina Simone, Lou Reed, Theme Week: Break the Rules, Made, Powerless, Silence, right?, The Velveteen Rabbit,

Get M83, Develop or find an easier calendar app, Make ornaments for library trees, At the break of drawn, I don't love God, I love his beauty, Quiet is much better in person, Picking yard, Long haired chinchilla, Oscar for the Prettiest Actress, Megamouth shark, Why are sine waves the most effective way at moving through water? Indian catfish, Volta, Do bees have similar wing patterns, How do flies land on glass? [can flies land on frictionless surface] Ultraviolet flower patterns, Pillars have to be massive, Series of buildings mimicking the microscopic, Alex Gray, Why isn't there a rise and influence of Catholicism-Christianity course, Sticky tack, castile soap, rolling pin, moisturizer, pie plate, acrylic paint, fruit, vegetables, collars, "meat," cheese, soap, coconut oil, pasta, red sauce, rice cooker, turtle tails as sex organs,

Friday, January 13, 2012


I'm not sure if I like traveling yet. It motivates me to appreciate otherwise mundane things, like residential architecture and street trash but is exhausting and expensive. This is alleviated, in part, by my skill of bus sleeping, but there's only so many hours I can handle jiggling in my sleep.

Free- 9/14, 9/15/09

"Burns life into anxious hollows"

This poem captures a far off summer, a season of adventure.

My summer felt a fiery hazy
Of when I belted out Amazed
In snuck out car with snuck out friend
And borrowed things not mine to lend

Of rafting down the Brandywine
And blessed a prayer with Jewish wine
In nature and that gallery
I lost and loved, respectively

Free- 9/16/09

He told me he wants back the time when he loved me innocently. Mathematically, in the scale of eons and universe, no measurable time has past. On the scale of chemical reactions, elements have spanned their lifetimes, creation, from ceasing to exist in billions and billions of reactions since that time. He wishes I hadn't grown up and discontent, hadn't become something lustful within the realm of conquest. We are complicated now, very different from the two dimensional characters of naive idealism.

Free write

I enjoy prose for prose. It's how I get through plotless novels. If you're saying something beautiful in an ugly way, like Bukowski, I'll listen. If you're filling the air with the grass and flowers of Ginsberg, even if you're not saying anything, I'll listen.

Only human, that's all he has left of his humanity.

My favorite muralist is Orozco.

From the grey nothingness we are born and into the obscurity of death we fade. The twisted between is something of a monotonous brilliance.

Free write- 10/6, 10/13/09

"Bare feet invite trouble." It is both a warning and a mantra of hope, "let there be adventure." My mom is ashamed of my wanderers feet. While they are not hobbits, she is horrified my calloused feet will ever appear in public in high heels without a professional pedicure, but this is not for me. From the very first day of spring, crossing vast expanses of grassy neighborhoods to visit a friend, to the frozen fall evening of barefoot bear wrestling, shoes are worn with dread. Unfortunately, until the warm winds beckon again, I'll stick to wearing my socks.

Kill all the humans. Nobody will get hurt and the world will be safe.

I love nerds. I'm not cool enough for anything more and get bored with anything less. I've been promised the stars and seen my fair share of them.

Suddenly, college diversity essays got a lot harder. Pronouns were the first to go, followed by pesky adjectives like "lanky, brunette, exceptional..." Capitalism was undermined; Everybody cheered until nobody wanted to be a farmer. Society began collapsing like a chandelier sprung loose in silent fall, with a crash of great orchestration.

Free write

a broken down lawn mower covered in grass
electrical lines in Lancaster
Conservatives who don't support women's choice until they have an accident
a fatty eating a whole tub of low fat ice cream
vegetarians wearing leather
Andy Dick sexually assaulting a girl
war to end war
hypocrisy is ironic
Titanic, the unsinkable ship, went down on its maiden voyage
woman crashing her car
squeaky sneakers
Yuri Gagarin dying in a plane crash
English teacher using bad grammar

All of the Possible Fears in the Whole World

heights-water-sharks-spiders-barking dogs-failure-being left all alone despite trying to have a fulfilling life- the people you love will die a sad painful untimely death - old age- death to your own, physical body- that you will trip and fall in front of people and they will laugh even though it hurts a little- that you or a loved one will being a continuous pain- you will be poor and hungry on the streets- fear that you will suddenly lose the ability to understand people - fear of abandonment- being robbed by a black man- being violated- rape-black people-big words-you'll forget your lines or your speech in front of a big crowd- lions-tigers-wild beasties-the unknown-things that are different from you- that sociable, upper class women will make fun of your fashion- rejection after you expose yourself to someone who you care about and you hope they will not hurt you--you will get mad at someone you love and then that night something very terrible will happen to them and you will never be able to ask forgiveness or tell them you love them - being buried alive- bad omens-losing your hair- getting cancer or something other terrible, wasting disease that will allow you to witness your own decay before death- zombies- curses- werewolves-vampires-rabies-bats-that you will be obsessed by something and it will drive you mad-needles-hospitals-science-drowning